Okay, so last week I got into a HUGE fight with my mom and dad. They were being complete asses and I don't understand them and they don't understand me. They found out that I was still cutting so my freakin mom went down into my room and took all my razors, knifes, everything!! It's bullshit. I don't understand them. Well anways, my dad told me to leave for the night last friday. I decided that I didn't want to go home at all so I went to my boyfriends parents house. I stayed there intill Wednesday night. I didn't want to go home, but I did anyways. Since I have been home all I have thought about was cutting, I smoke all the times, I am so depressed, and I just don't want to be here. I am 18 in two months and I just want out!!
Life right now seems kind of pointless to me. I know that I could never ever come to the point of killing myself, but I just do a lot of cutting. I stopped for the longest time and I was doing so well. My boyfriend who is gone for the Navy right now in Chicago is in A school and I just get to talk to him on the phone. I haven't seen him since January 4th. It is so hard. I feel so lonley. He keeps telling me to go back with his parents and just live there. They will let me, and have even offered. It's just that I am graduating soon, what will I do? My parents wouldn't talk to me. Life isn't fair. I wish that I could start all over again. I would change so much, but yet some things I wouldn't change at all. Does anyone else get that way???
I am trying so hard to keep my sanity, but I don't think that I can for much longer. I might have to just lose total control. I feel like I have no control what-so-ever though. I don't know what to do. HELP!!!!! Please!!
Why does life have to be so complicated???
4.)What forms of Si do you do? cutting
5.)How long have you been doing this? 3 years
6.)Why did you join this community? just for support and so I could support others
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